Fear of Adequacy?

I think the phrase I hated the most growing up was "there is something special about you".  Sounds weird right?  Honestly I spent most of my childhood hearing prophetic like phrases telling me of the wonders I would do on the Earth and how God wanted to "use" me.  Truth is I DIDN'T WANT ANY PARTS OF THAT!!! I met God young.  My parents made sure I knew about Jesus and my faith was pretty strong.  My rebellion was strong too.  I liked God, I thought I loved Him but what I didnt want was for Him to use me.  I just wanted to be regular.  Get away with the things that others did and use the gifts...

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Long Time..No Failures To Report!

OMG! Ive lost fifty pounds (51 to be exact).  Can you believe this!!!???!!! If you have followed this blog for any significant amount of time you already know this is INCREDIBLE!!! I have tried and failed so many times but this time I'm crushing it....and the only reason is....I STUCK WITH IT! When the weight jumped up for no reason...I kept going.  When I didn't feel well and fell off my routine and got back up and kept going. I truly made it a lifestyle. Here I am less than 10 lbs away from being under 200lb pounds...something I havent seen since 2006.  Im proud of me!   Im encouraged to...

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Interesting HourGlass

So most women obsess with their body shape.  Not me. Well not completely at least.  I can honestly say I like the shape of my body.  Its pretty hot.  Only thing is that my tummy doesn't match the rest of me.  By all conventional scales and measurements, I am a true hour glass with a distinct waistline in comparison to my hips and shoulders.    By the way...I know I haven't updated this blog in 3000 days...I am still losing weight.  41 lbs. down...I promise. I just haven't been into updating like I used to be. I need to get back into it...honestly.  I'll put a picture below so you know I'm...

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Not the DAIRY!!! NOOOOO!

One of my accountability partners said to me....you are working way too hard for you not to get faster results, there is something you don't know. My first reaction was not a happy one...it kinda rained on my parade but then when I reflected on it...I realized they were right. There was something I didn't know....more than exercise.  My friends kept saying maybe your allergic to something or something is reacting with your body in a way to cause inflammation or something.  At that point I knew what it was...but I went into denial.  DAIRY.  I am not a big milk fan (I use almond milk), I have cut out ice cream (which...

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Its Been A Looooonnnnng Time!!!

Did you miss me?  My computer was having difficulties....well it still is.  Then I simply forgot about this blog but I did NOT forget about my goals.  Its been 6 months... Today is weigh in day... I havent weighed in yet but from what I do know...Im 32.6 lbs down! WOOOHOOO!  Since living in Florida, I have never lost more than 23ish lbs so breaking that has been awesome! I am now at the weight I was around when I originally moved here.  Which probably doesnt make sense because I just said Ive lost 23ish lbs before.  Well here is what happened... I was at weight A when I moved here then lost 23ish lbs and got...

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Big = Desperate?

One thing that gets on my nerves... LIKE FOR REAL! Is the idea that people think that all women that are overweight are desperate and/or insecure.... I understand there is correlation with weight gain and low self esteem.  I get it.  Regardless of that, just because she smiled at you and laughed at your corny joke...does not mean she wants you.  You may not have noticed but she has eyes and a brain just like you and you may not be her type! You might just be as unattractive to her as she is to you.  Right. Secondly, don't pity her like its the end of the world and if she loses the weight...she will remember...

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STARVATION MODE....AHHHH!

. Starvation mode.... Have you heard of it? Are you scared of it? If you have ever been on a weight loss journey at all you have heard of it and the dangers to avoid it.  What it is basically is your body thinking your are stuck in the tundra somewhere because you have decreased your calorie intake for a prolonged period.  So the next time you eat something, your body holds on to it for dear life in fear that it may never eat again. LOL! They say the magic number is 1200 calories, you should never go under that amount on a daily basis.  Here is my problem...sometimes I just don't make it to 1200.  I get...

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