Seriously. I think I may be addicted to food; specifically junk food. From my upbringing I was not allowed to indulge in many things that I thought at that time would be fun. Even when I got on my own, my upbringing stayed with me and there were some things that I just couldnt do...or get too far in to. This didnt count for food. I came from a family of a bunch of skinny people who could EAT! Not to mention a mother and grandmother(s) that could cook the socks off of any iron chef! So my love for REAL seasoned and delicable food started very young. I didnt grow up one of those fat kids you see on Maury. I was average. My appetite on the other hand was not. My parents were not big avocates on fast food often. It as reserved as a treat, same for junk food. So that made me crave it more and more. So whenever I got a spare quarter or dollar...that is what I spent it on. This went on into adulthood. Unfortunetly, my weight caught up with my appetite.
Now that I am rebooting, I can literally feel the pull in my brain when I see "junk" food of any kind. I WANT IT ALL! Its not normal. I was in my local Winn-Dixie buying some Boltshouse "Green Goodness" and had to FORCE and I mean FORCE myself not to buy candy or chips when going through the register. It was like I couldnt help myself. I dont get the shakes or anything that extreme but I do have more than just a habit of eating bad things. I can admit it. They say that is the first step in overcoming an addiction. BUT I DID MAKE IT THROUGH WITHOUT GETTING JUNK...so I can rejoice in that! Woohoo! I have struggled with this last getting passed 10 lbs because of this tendency to just grab something. The last 2 weeks, Ive cheated several times. So I worked into my plan a "cheat" day. Once a week. I can have something outside of my reboot BUT it has to be a healthy choice. So my last official cheat I had California Chicken Grill (a local place where they sell nothing fried...but its really good). So I didnt feel so bad...and it satisfied my need to "order" food.
One day at a time. I know others are addicted (I can name a couple of people I know) but no one notices until they get fat or their health is compromised.
Till Next Time
Stepping Into Freedom