Looking Into My Future

Life has brought me obstacles but with my faith coupled with diligence I have overcome it...watch me win!

White Plains, NY

I love my City!!! It birthed a Champion!

A Piece of Me

A life full of great memories always begins with a great family and some good friends :)

My Destination

Success is only one decision away...will you choose wisely?

My Passion!

Education is our most valuable resource as a society...we must work to preserve it and build a brighter future!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Tested, Tried, FAILED!

You never know who you are until you are face to face with a situation. Then you shall see if you are what you've been saying you are.  I think its healthy for us to have these situations.  How else will we know what we are made of?  Sometimes we think we are stronger or over certain things but you will never know until you confront those bones in the closet.  

Had one of those days....well a couple of days.  Instead of crying about it...I decide to move on...thank God I'm alive and look forward to 2013.  Reflecting on it...it shows you that God can shield you by any means necessary even when you are determined to do what you want to do.  If he has to harden the heart of a king for his people to be free... that's just what He will do.  If your feelings have to be hurt to protect your gift....well you might find yourself crying but not for long.  Joy comes after midnight....ALWAYS.  Buck up! Trust me it happens to ALL of us! Even the perfection that is LESLIE DALLAS... I'm shocked too! Seriously, a calling, a gift or popularity does not shield you from heartache or pain.  Everyone will have to step up to the proving plate once, twice or thousands of times.  You may fail sometimes but His grace is sufficient. Allow failures to make you stronger and more compassionate toward others and their weaknesses.  No more PRIDE when you realize you can fall just as hard and look just as dumb as those you've been giving the side eye.

We all have had a chicken-head moment or two....
[WATCH! For laughs... :)] 

My best-friend and I had a grand old time reminiscing on some the dumb stuff we have done in the past....especially for the affections of another.  I will spare you the details. I mention this to say that its OK to laugh at your failures...it helps you reflect and keeps you from depression.  

A couple of my brothers (I have a few) lectured me about letting go of old stuff and not getting stuck in the past.  One compared it to a winter coat....he said you think you are OK because you put your winter coat away for the summer but when winter comes back you pull it back out and realize you still own the issue.  I hate being lectured...but my goodness that was good! 

As you go into the New Year...drop off the winter coats.  Sometimes God will block things because there are so many more coats that fit you better [even if the old coat is really really nice...I mean really nice! ;)]. Be careful, don't think you can just go out and try anything and that angels will always rescue you from yourself...sometimes you may find yourself in some real mess. Its time to grow up and become stronger...shake off the embarrassment...talk to God about it....be honest with yourself and move on. Great thing is now you are equipped to help all the other chicken heads or fools waiting to be reformed with loving compassion and understanding! How cool!

Till the Next Time
Glad to be Going Home!  :)

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Ouch!

Never try and exercise in your Grandma's crowded house. Wounded. Slight teary eyed. Hopefully no bruises.  As much as I love coming here...no one has time to entertain me. Now Im bored, in pain and sad. Monday I said I wanted to stay forever...today I feel slightly different. Getting out of this house to find something to do...an idle mind starts to make up unnecessary foolery. :)

Till Next Time,
Enjoying My Time :)

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

20 Down...Reflection

This entry wont be long...

Just sitting and reflecting on a doctor's visit in 2006 when I first began to gain this weight and couldn't figure out why I gained 50 pounds in less than a year.  Tests and test and more tests..doctor comes in says Hyperinsulemia.  WHAT THE HECK IS THAT!?!?

Then the words...obese, hypertension, and diabetes II came into the conversation....
WAIT! I'm only 25 years old...and I don't want any of that!  What can I do? How can I stop this?  Why do I have this?  More talk about insulin, glucose, and hormones...and then the possibility of the birth control I was taking being the driving force behind the hormonal shift...so that was the last day I took birth control needless to say.  

I dropped one drug...to receive a LOAD of prescriptions, vitamins and other supplements to help me get through this.  Then the words I will never forget...

"The truth is Ms White, at this point without this medication and/or surgery you will not be able to lose this weight" *Blank Stare* Ok. What should I do...Im getting ready to graduate college and this is not want I wanted to hear. 

A few months of taking the medication...and vomiting every few days or in the bathroom for some another reason...I had lost NO weight and I was tired of being sick! I'd rather just be fat than this! I gave up the medicine...

Fast forward to 2008...at this point I'm living in Florida and I am at this new church and just heard a lesson called the ABC's of Healing...after that lesson all I could think was "so you mean to tell me I don't have to have this disease!?!" I know God is a healer but shoot, never thought about Him healing me...what do I have to lose.  I gave Hyperinsulemia up that night...and haven't heard from it since...

Then there was the issue with Bulimia, my undercover secret...that haunted me up till honestly 2012. I didnt see myself losing weight without my magic pills; but here I am 20.2 lbs down...no laxatives, no medication, no surgery.  Just hard work and help from God.

What happened to that diagnosis?  The fact was that I had those issues...I am a believer in the craft of medicine...God gave man that knowledge and its much appreciated.  Yet we have to deal with the truth...that the word says "by His stripes we ARE healed", its all about accepting and walking in the truth.  At anytime, doubt can come in and the facts will come back...what will you choose today? I choose the truth!


Till Next Time,
Grateful for the TRUTH

Monday, December 10, 2012

Letters for Leslie Entry #2

Hallelujah! Glory to God! I have done it! Twenty pounds down and I am finally opened a letter, I ripped that thing off the wall like a beast and read it.  It was written by my good friend whose name is the same as mine without the E at the end.  I cried and cried.  She literally wrote me a four page letter....

So here's my YouTube entry: 




1. Apple Cinnamon Water has boosted my metabolism
2. Green smoothies are good for digestion
3. Broccoli is delicous
4. Weight Loss is NOT linear
5. Weight Training HELPS and HURTS
6. People are much nicer to me now....its sad.
7. Running is HARD
8. Rest days are ESSENTIAL
9. Jillian Micheal is MEAN and a BEAST
10. Still Cant Tell AT ALL! 


Till Next Time,
Pushing toward 30!

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Letters of Leslie Entry #1



If you have kept up you'd know that I've asked seven women to write me letters for every ten pounds I lose and for each goal reach I would review that enclosed letter here on the blog.  Well I have reached the first increment....actually I did a long time ago.  I don't have a letter to open as of yet but that doesn't stop the show, so here's the latest update in video form...and my face!







Till Next Time, 
Slimming Down :)

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Everyday Fight: Eating Disorders

You don't hear about it much these days...definitely not among African Americans but its real....it exists...it kills.  Eating disorders.  There are so many different kinds, so many different symptoms and if affects so many different people.  My battle was bulimia   I didn't even know I had it until I researched it for myself....I thought bulimics just threw up, which I never have done.  I hate vomiting so that never crossed my mind.  It started in college...very innocently.   I gained weight my freshman and sophomore years eating a great diet full of carbs and more carbs.  I ended up transferring schools and moving back close to home.  I hadn't used the bathroom (#2) in WEEKS if not months, so I decided to take some herbal laxatives that I found in my parents house. It worked, it was the first time I ever took laxatives, IT FELT SO GOOD! Rightfully so, I needed them because I was truly not functioning properly. At that time, my lifestyle was changing as well....I was commuting to school instead of being on campus, that change of walking 2-3 miles a day caused me to lose weight.  I was unaware of the change until people started noticing. I liked the attention and I liked the change too.  I began to really watch what I ate and restricted my diet a little too much.  On days where I ate too much, I would just take laxatives and I felt that would do the trick. For the time, it did. Going to the bathroom became an obsession for me...it was a RELEASE physically and emotionally.    I associated weight loss with going to the bathroom and that is still something I struggle with. Before that year was out I was about 80 pounds down and happy! No one knew I was abusing laxatives...not even me. I thought it was reasonable to do and it was working.  People started commenting that I lost too much weight and I needed to eat, but I was scared to and if I did, I had my magic pills. It was an obsession, laxatives, enemas and colon cleansers. The cramping was a sense of relief because I knew they were working.  I was taking them at least 3x a week. My mom caught me one day and brought it to my attention that what I was doing was very harmful, but I was still in denial. I said I would stop and for a time I did.   Eventually I continued.

Years later, and a bout with birth control pills....I gained the weight back that I lost plus about 30 extra.  Yep, I know that's a lot. I kicked up my habit even more...but this time it didn't work...and I couldn't even use the bathroom regularly without assistance of some sort of laxative.  3x a week went to every night. I finally came to grips with the fact that I had a problem.   I began to change my life and with God's help, I've been delivered but deliverance takes daily renewal.  I asked Holy Spirit for help to overcome but the urges come more often than not.  Some days are harder than others but I make it.  Its been a while since I've taken laxatives but it hasn't been that long since I thought about them.  I look at them in my cabinet everyday and its tempting.  I don't talk about this to anyone because either:


  1. They wont believe me
  2. Or they'd make a joke out of it
Its not a joke.  Its not a game.  Its a battle but through Christ all things are possible.  I have my confession.  I received my healing and I walk in it daily.  With exercise, and a diet change I will finish this weight loss journey successfully.  With prayer and faith my body will recover completely from the damage I've inflicted on it.  I believe it and I see the manifestation each day.  I also believe that there is help for all of those who are suffering from eating disorders.  First thing is to develop a self image based  on what God says and not what society feeds you. I love myself, I don't want to hurt me anymore, I think I'm beautiful and my weight doesn't define that. When you love yourself with God's kind of love, you will begin to see yourself differently.  You can do this...so can I. Deliverance, healing  and freedom is available to you! 


Till Next Time
Healing and Fighting Everyday :)


Flushing it down the drain....

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Food You Enjoy...

Most difficult part of this weight loss journey for me is being consistent with the food.  Food is LIFE...literally.  I have no problem drinking water and eating veggies or fruit but that stuff takes effort, you have to cook it, buy it, clean it, etc...yeah clearly my busy lifestyle interferes with my homemaking desires.  I enjoy cooking food...Im quite good at it.  But on the run its so much easier to run through BK and get a whopper Jr and a small onion ring....which is a whopping 550 calories!  

This battle has caused me to be serious about time management and MAKING the time to cook and plan meals.  Now that I have been doing it for over a month consistently, its not that bad. Between jobs (I have several), I cook my dinner, which takes anywhere between 30-45 min.  Healthy food has a rep for being gross...and truth be told some of that health stuff is nasty.  I like eating too much to eat grossness...I REFUSE! If I am going to do it...I have to have food I enjoy.  My meals are usually filled with veggies and FULL of flavor and usually about 400 calories per meal and FILLING!

I say if you going change your diet....ENJOY IT!

Till Next Time
Eating Light and Right :)




Broccoli w/ Garlic Sauce (220 calories)

Spinach Tomato Linguine (No Meat; 631 calories)

Teriyaki Jerk Shrimp with Spinach (204 calories)

Honey Grilled Salmon (250 calories)



Monday, November 5, 2012

My Battle: Snacks!

OK! I think I have gotten my meals down pretty good.  I like my food to taste good and if I cook it...I can ensure it will filling, filled with veggies and flavors.  Light on oil and heavy on fiber and TASTE.  The calories are low...and its GREAT!  

But between meals..the snacking gets me. Its not necessarily bad snacks, I just eat too many of them....and the calories PILE UP before you know it.  One day I can eat almost 1000 calories worth of snacks when I am supposed to have about 250 calories....not good! Not good at all.  Most day I do OK...but I need to do GREAT everyday.  Im over ten pounds down again...and this is when I am down to the nitty gritty.  I believe the first 10-12 pounds at my size is just mostly water weight...not sure if its a fact or not but I do know it gets significantly more difficult at this point.  I dont want to go over the same few pounds week after week....so I have to focus!

I want to be 20+ lbs down by Christmas as much as I can get off by then the better...going home for Christmas is always a challenge because Im not home and it throws me off my element not to mention my mama's amazing FOOD! So the more I have lost by that time the better position I will be in to recover when I come back home. Hopefully I wont have to recover at all. My goal is to go into 2013 more than 20 pounds lost.  The beginning of the year is always a good time for me to lose weight so if Im already down I can increase my results.  

So I am looking out for healthy snacks...
I like popcorn and granola...I do like green apples but fresh fruit goes bad so fast in my house.  If anyone has good suggestions....let me know!

Till Next Time
Snacking Light :)

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Packing Protein

Now that I am strength training Ive been reading and hearing that I need to have more protein...

I am done with the meatless diet for now...
Unless I hit an stubborn plateau...than Im going LIQUID!

Anywho....I decided to add whey protein to my diet...

I bought some of Jillian Micheal's Whey Protein (vanilla) from my local Wal-Mart. I add 1/2 scoop to my green smoothies.  ITS SO YUMMY & FILLING!

Whey protein contains the amino acid leucine which is very important to the fat burning process according to studies, leucine helps maintain muscle mass during weight loss...sparing it from being lost and drives your weight loss toward water and FAT...which is what we are after right? Sounds promising.

I decided to give it a try....I will only use it in the morning after my workouts for breakfast....
That way my muscle can recover from the resistance training.

Here is my green smoothie recipe:
1/2 scoop Jillian Micheal's Vanilla Whey Protein
3/4 cup of Unsweetened Almond Milk
1 cup of Great Value Frozen Fruit (Strawberry, Mango, Pineapple, Peach)
1 cup of Baby Spinach
3 oz of Low Fat Yogurt


Calories 214
Carbs 31
Fat 4
Protein 12
Fiber 15 

Till Next Time
Liking Leucine :) 


Thursday, November 1, 2012

The Road to Nineveh

The road you've avoided this whole time is the road you must travel.  These are words we don't want to hear....EVER.  Why cant life be easy?  Take my advise.  Don't ever ask that question.  

Some super spiritual people don't like to say things are "hard"...well I beg to differ.  Some things are HARD as DIAMONDS (they rank the highest on the Moh's scale of hardness...had to throw some science in).  Just like diamonds...hard battles are worth winning.  Im sure Jesus didnt look at the cross and say....that was easy.  Face it friends...some stuff is rough!

Admitting that does not mean your ultimate defeat...it helps you realize:

1. YOU CANT DO EVERYTHING!
2. Through Christ...ALL battles can be won...

Your job isn't to act like its all easy...your job is to run into the arms that it is easy for.  

Now back to the subject at hand.

Nineveh...a place of historical importance.

Mostly known for Jonah's journey which is the inspiration of this entry.  Ninevah was a wicked place...full of foolishness and debauchery. None of the righteous dare set foot in there, yet God called Jonah to go in and save that place.  Jonah said NO SIR! Im out...Im going to get a ticket in the opposite direction...to safety.  Probably toward some Jewish resort...where he could worship and stay "safe".  If you dont learn anything else in life...there is NO safety in disobedience.  After nearly killing everyone on the ship...Jonah finally came to his senses...and jumped ship literally.  We know the rest of the story....if not head on over to the Old Testament and read the book of Jonah sometime...its pretty good!

We all have to go to Nineveh at some point...   
That place we are "too good for" "too smart for" "too lazy for" etc...etc...
Yet God said to go...why...to sharpen you....to prepare you for that place you've been begging him for but YOU AINT READY YET!  Jonah didn't know why God would want him in such a place...they didn't deserve his service...but Jonah didn't even deserve to know God so how could he say that?  Every creation deserves to experience everything God has for them and if you are the vessel to use....you dont have the RIGHT to refuse Him.   They deserve it because He wants them to have it...no other reason necessary. Its actually a privilege and an honor. On the other side of Nineveh is God's favor, protection and approval.  Most of all over 120,000 people were saved...for that makes it all worth it!

Who will be saved during your road to Ninevah? Whose life will be changed?  For a little discomfort..if we can save a life...we should.  Especially when we know we are covered by the greatest of them all.  His promises are still YES and AMEN...even when it hurts!   

Now get going!

Till Next Time
Nineveh Bound :)

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Weight Loss is Not Linear

This wont be long...

The scientist in me...likes to extrapolate and predict what the results will be for the next few months...and when it doesn't happen I get ANGRY!  

I've learned that it wont work that way. I've learned that there are trends but they are NOT linear.  So my formulas and predictions are not always accurate but that's real life. 

I have to accept that....and thats OK. 
Will I still make predictions and extrapolation...probably...its fun.  At the end of it all....there will be a trend line and I will be able to find its equation how exciting will that be...

Till Next Time,
Formulating :)

Here Comes the Muscle!

So I've knocked off 10 pounds...most likely its all water. I can never tell.  Still meatless.  Eating well but I know that its time to bring on the weights. This is what I am not looking forward to because I know the fast weight loss is over...the muscles are going to start building and the numbers on the scale will start going loco.  I must stay diligent.  I will start looking at the fat percentage on my scale to help my mind stay at ease.  So I am hoping to lose 5-7 pounds a month at this point, if I get more than that; FANTASTIC!  In November, I will begin to add fish back into my diet....and if I have a plateau that wont kick...JUICE it is...five days to break it.  Sounds like a plan. By the end of November I hope to be at at least 16 lbs down total.  

I haven't been measuring inches  except for my waist and I am not seeing any changes there...but I can say I am sleeping better and feeling more energetic.  As I build muscle...I should start looking better even if my weight doesn't drop as fast with cardio and diet restriction alone. 

My goal is to be able to start eating normal meals and to continue to lose weight so I wont be in shock when I go into maintenance.  Experts say that building muscle trumps cardio alone because your muscles will continue to work long after the work out is over.  So when I am lounging around watching Netflix...my body will be burning up the belly.  I like that sound of that! 

I absolutely despise strength training...but I like what does.  I like the results.

Trying not to focus on my tummy as much because it really doesn't move they way I want it to...its like watching paint dry.  The little changes are not going to be seen by my naked eye...in three months (end of January) I will check again.  I should see some measuring differences by then at least one inch...

Not sure what exercise regimen I will employ next...but we will see at 20 lbs down...

Till Next Time,
Bulking UP :)

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Not Today.

Get your tissues girls....
This is tear jerker.

No more tears from this end...just frustration, anguish and disappointments.  Behind it all there is a light, there is something greater at the other side...but in the valley its a bit dark.  Today is one of those days....or weeks, months maybe.

I don't want to dress up no more...whats the point comes to mind.  No amount of makeup or clothes that I own is going to cover up the fact that I HATE EVERYTHING I OWN.  No amount of compliments will make me feel like I look appropriate because I don't feel appropriate.  No cliches or quotes will suffice today, this week or this month.

The truth is I don't like the way I look.  I don't like the way clothes feel on me.  I feel like a stranger in this house.  I wasn't always this way....I can remember when....I still have the clothes...the pictures...the memories.  When curves lived here and I drew all the attention but more than that...I felt good.  It really didn't matter what I wore, tee shirt, slacks, sweats....I was comfortable in it all.  Not today, this week or this month.

Yeah I know it will get better and I look forward to that...but the truth is I don't feel that way today, this week or this month.

Is this low self esteem?  Not sure.  I look in the mirror....I see my face everyday...Im rather fond of it...always have been. Face of Gloria, bone structure of Wallace...chocolate skin with no flaws...Im in favor of it.  Hair girls dream of....personality most imitate...intelligence unprecedented.  The ability to talk to crackheads and heads of state...baffle most people.  I enjoy me.  Leslie Dallas is a force to be reckoned with...

But there's another part of me that I just cant fix...that part of life that didn't come easy like everything else.  The part that I start and stop and start and stop...get close...life changes...and my focus does too...

Starting again...seems abysmal.  Yet I take the challenge on today, this week and this month.  I believe I can do it today, this week, this month and this year.  There are words that do help....


No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.  Hebrews 12:11
There is always an answer, there is always a reassurance. Today, tomorrow, this week and forever.  Sometimes its healthy to just say that you aint happy....how can you confront why you do things...if you are not honest about they way you feel today.  When you are not happy on the inside it will show everywhere else...you wont realize it at first but you will look around and see you arent taking care of yourself the way you used to.  

I am learning to celebrate every little thing along the way...to regain what has been stolen because of my own choices.  Its promised to me...seven fold.  Its may not come today, this week or this month.  But I will rejoice at each fraction of it till I get to the end...

Why did I write this...because I wanted to.  I needed to. 

Your reaction...who knows?  My healing has begun....

Till Next Time,
Feeling better today, this week and this month :) 


Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Ahhh! No food in the house...probably not true.

Did I mention my hair is mid back length?  That has NOTHING to do with this blog entry but God knows that is a big deal!  Exercise and eating veggies does wonders for the hair...that's for sure!

The point of this entry is to talk about the phrase "I have no food in the house"  I often say it...and meant it.  Ive found that this is most likely not true...

So today is day 10 without meat...well I had fish yesterday...long story...

Well I will tell it...

I forgot my breakfast and lunch which were contained in my lunchbox on the dining room table....
So I was foodless for the entire day until I got home from work...I was lightheaded and a yogurt wasnt gonna do it.  So I seared some tilapia and I'm not ashamed about it...

Back to the point...

I thought I didnt have any food in the house and I was starving...sticking to my budget I was not going back to the grocery store...so I decided to get creative.  If you look deep in your cabinets, Im sure that you can find some ingredients that will make a glorious meal.  So that's what I did...

Found some diced tomatoes, spinach and whole wheat pasta....and got to thinking...

Here's what I came up with:


2 oz. Whole Wheat Linguine
3/4 can of diced tomatoes
1 cup of baby spinach
1/2 cup of chopped onion
2 tsp minced garlic
2 tbsp Zesty Italian Dressing
1/8 c Half and Half
1 tbsp Olive Oil

Cook Pasta as directed on box
In a skillet, heat olive oil on medium low heat and add tomatoes until it comes to slow boil (salt and pepper to taste)
Add onion, garlic, Italian dressing and half and half
Continue to cook and increase heat to medium high
When onions are translucent, add spinach and cook  until wilted
Continue to stir until mixed well and add strained linguine
Toss with grated Parmesan cheese and ENJOY!
It was delicious ...I was well pleased.  

Loaded it into MyFitnessPal and the caloric count fit well into my daily count...

Just wanted to share...and write down the recipe so I wont forget it again :)

Till Next Time,
Filling my Tummy on the Budget :) 

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Till It's Gone...

"Now why you wanna go and do that?" I can hear myself upset about my belly even after making such progress...progress I couldn't see.  Rightfully so because I see myself everyday and gradual changes are not to be seen by the naked constant eye.  

Until you gain the weight again and realize you had it pretty good.  MY BELLY HAS REBOUNDED LIKE NEVER BEFORE!  The saying is true that you don't know what you got till its gone...I'll take my old belly back for 200 Alex! 

Its really amazing how we don't pay attention to the little changes good or bad that our body makes.  

6.6 lbs down since Monday and I can only be patient with my body changes.  The belly will have to submit sooner or later.  If I continue to lose weight it will have to follow suit...how soon that will happen and if it will be to my liking?  That is yet to be seen.  All I know is that it will be smaller than it is now.  Its like I am with child literally. If not for shame...I would take a picture and post it.  The beast must be contained...lol!

I am still using my gift list from before.  A present for every 10 pounds.  I got the two presents earlier this year (earrings and makeup) so I wont repeat those.  Now I cant have a gift until 30 lbs...which is NEW SHOES! God knows I need some! I'm so hard on shoes...even more so since the weight gain.  I added something else....LETTERS!

Someone I follow on YouTube writes letters to herself and then opens them as she reaches goals...she says her memory is bad so its a delight to see what she has written herself.  Here lies my problem...my memory is NOT bad and I can remember things from when I was three so that would not be much fun.  So I handpicked 7 women to write me letters for every ten pounds....they have agreed to write me letters and I can open them until the I reach the weight I have assigned to them.  Some are very excited about doing this so this should be interesting...

I will post a video of me reading the letters here...each time I get to open one.  I reserved the last letter for my mom...who has no idea yet...I will let her know at a later date.  Probably Christmas time when I can get it from her and bring it back to put on my faith wall.  

This is HARD...I wont front...I make no excuses...everyone has opinions and victories to tell but this is so individual that you cant really follow anyone but Holy Spirit who knows what will work for you.  

This month... I'm meatless....YES MEATLESS!  Breadless too...
I've been juicing and eating fruits and veggies...

I allowed myself snacks...but need to change my snacks to healthy things...like popcorn and I'm looking for other salty and sweet healthy alternatives...

Some people go cold turkey...hap hap hallelujah for you...but I'm not going that way.  I'm really trying to introduce things that I can maintain FOREVER. Habits that I will use for a lifetime and not just for a moment....cause when I rebound....I REBOUND HARD!

Till Next Time,
Slow and Steady Wins the Race :)


Wednesday, October 3, 2012

#TeamFat

#TeamFat.
I hate this team! 

Yet I keep coming back...well technically I never left but I was making progress...got to 17 pounds.  Somehow some way...17 pounds is now a measly TWO.  So here we go again....

Back to juicing and eating veggies and dusting off the Wii Fit and other tools of trade.  Gotta keep trying until it works...

Seems like I always start when Im bloated already, further dampening my excitement...its been three days since I restarted my journey to health.  Logged back in to MyFitnessPal and saw how many people had made so much progress during my hiatus.  I hid my virtual face in shame.  WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN? The dreaded plauteau that wont leave....turns into frustration...which turns into me turning into the drive thru....everyday for a month...then the exercise becomes unbearable because my body is full of toxins...out of money and energy.

This is how seventeen becomes two.

Needless to say....Im back...same goal in mind....taking it ten pounds at a time....

Right now Im meatless...and starting off with low intensity workouts until I get my endurance up...

I know what to do...I just havent mastered not giving up....


Till Next Time,

Trying Again :)

Friday, June 8, 2012

Shedding and Breakage....Which Is It?

So I am still in the protective mode....


Today I took out my updo and washed and deep conditioned my hair.  I will air dry and twist again tomorrow.  One thing I dont like about twisting my hair is the tangles that I get...I am still perfecting my ability to take my time and CAREFULLY take down twists. I find that I get alot of breakage when I am removing twists.  Im sure this is not at all as bad as what I am thinking but any breakage is BAD during a growth challenge.


I can say my hair remained moisturized and conditioned...it was not dry and brittle when I took the twists down which was an awesome thing!  


From now on...I will stick to larger twist instead of small ones which are really hard to loosen and easily gets tangled. 


I did wash with a new shampoo which I LOVE!


Its from U R Curly called Soya Shampoo 
Its a great complement for the Morning Mint Masque which I am deep conditioning with RIGHT NOW! The shampoo has soy protein, tea tree oil and abyssinian oil and provides a great tingle.  It makes my hair feel like SILKY GOODNESS!  The smell is heavenly...I love it!


Hopefully the hairs I lost was more shedding than breakage....(I didnt notice too many white bulbs....eek!) and when I measure my hair in July I will see some improvement!  I PRAY! 


Im really trying! :)


Here's the next style I am trying...






Till Next Time
Taking the Twists Down Slowly 

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Protective Style #1

So I really wanted to get kinky twists because they look so beautiful...but reality hit and I know that they never last more than two days in my head (well may be 2-3 weeks) and I dont get the full benefit of them.  I saw some pics of people who have twisted their own hair and did some awesome things with it and I decided to give it a shot.  I mean I have a decent amount of hair it should work!

So I attempted to do an updo and I think it came out pretty good....its modeled after FusionofCultures on youtube I put one of her videos in my last entry about flat twisting.  I am not that good and the flat twisting but I am am better than I was before...I have a hard time getting them to be tight. All and all I think I did a good job!

YAY ME! I will try to keep this in all week and then I will probably wear my hair down to wash it and back up it will go...

How do you style your hair during its protective seasons?

Till Next Time,
Protecting and Shielding :)

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Hair Growth: Protective Styling

So I am not sure if my hair has grown at all during my little challenge!  It does seems thicker, less hair is trapped in my combs and brushes and definitely more moisturized...I haven't measured again yet...that isn't due until July.  I am still using MTG and covering my hair and that has served its purpose...I will continue to do that!  Next phase is protective styling!  I am not one for true protective styling because I like my hair to be FREE so I can play with it!  BUT I've seen the proof....protective styling is very important for length retention! So I must try it...


Starting next week (sometime after 6/2) I will be doing protective styles ONLY for one month straight!  YES! ONE WHOLE MONTH!  I want to do kinky twists....but I am not that good.  I will see how it goes!  I am not looking up protective styles so I can try them out and get this thing GOING!  I will take down for my deep conditions....then right back up they will go! 


I will play my deep conditions by ear.....when my hair is looking broke, busted and disgusted I will refresh it with a nice conditioner!  


This method will minimize combing, finger play and brushing which will minimize BREAKAGE!


I found a great video that teaches me how to do the style above....
Why not give it a try!






Till Next Time,
Twisting and Protecting

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

You Deserve It!!!

Take a look at your life.


Do you treat yourself well? How do you keep your home?

How do you look when you leave the house?

All of these things are direct correlations to how you really think about yourself. There is a scripture that says "For as a man thinketh in his heart, so is he." (Proverbs 23:7). Such a powerful scripture! However you think about you...will manifest in your everyday life. You may think you have high self esteem and you may even convince others but if you really felt that way...you would treat yourself better. Would a queen really sit in filth day after day and be ok with it? Would you look like yesterday's bad news? Deep down inside we all know we deserve more but lack the courage to change things.

You were created to reign and to rule, God only thinks good thoughts toward you. "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11). He wants you to have the best in life. Somewhere in our journey we have allowed the words spoken over us to get into our hearts and we may not even know...but its easily seen on the outside. God has designed you to LIVE!




Paint your nails...buff those heels! Dress like the paparazzi is waiting at your doorstep! Clean your house...treat it like a palace! Do your hair (or your weave)...you never know who is watching! Manage your health...exercise and eat well! Your life depends on it! Say nice things to yourself and about yourself. If you dont like something about you...CHANGE IT! You can do it! Sure your heart is WONDERFUL, but we only can see your outward appearance...let the inside shine through! We want to see what God sees! This is especially true for us singles that desire a husband. Dont you want to be shiny crown to his head? Why would God place one of His kings in sloppy care? He wont. Not just for a man...Im not talking facades IM TALKING LIFE CHANGE! Do it because you want better.




These tips are for us all...me included. Lets stop talking about it and start BEING IT!




Till Next Time
Watching Over My Kingdom Royally ;-)

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Still Pushing...

Im still here!  Dont you doubt me...lol!


So life got busy...
My parents were coming to town, it was my church's anniversary so there were services and activities to prepare for and attend, I was getting ordained, and it was FCAT time (for a Florida teacher...that means WORK!).  So many things going on in the month of April...my head could've popped off!  Despite of that I know I can do ALL things through Christ...so its all good!  Made it through the season...but my weight suffered a bit...working out was falling farther and farther on my to do list...until it wasn't there!  


So my weight go from 17 pounds lost all the way to 6 pounds lost...now we know that most of that was water but still....I had to stop it!  So I slowly got back into the swing of things this month (May), first I started eating better and picking up my water again...that alone brought that 6 to a 12 in the matter of days....then I slowly began to exercise again...now that 12 is back to a 17 YAY!  I am trying to make it to 20 by Friday. I know it sounds over zealous but the fact of the matter is that most of this is water weight that I have gained and I just need to regulate myself now...I think three pounds in a week is feasible for the place I am in. Meaning just starting out again.  Its like that first week when you start working out and you lose six pounds because your body is like WOAH!  So I am hoping to have one of those weeks...then I know I will just go back to my 1-2 pounds a week which is normal.  Just happy to be out of the 240s....even more anticipating the 220s...its been a loooooong time coming.  I know if you are reading this, you are probably saying that the 220s is nothing to be excited about...well you can just HUSH IT!  Its not a parking spot but its definitely a big change from where I was in December...


I am looking to be solid in the 220s by the end of summer, if I really push it I can get to the teens of the 200s...then I am on my way back to the 100s....I will be throwing a party the moment I hit at least 199.9 because I haven't seen the 100s in about 6-7 years.  Its been a long time. I miss them so much...and we will have our reunion!


You know that each time I lose an increment of 10lbs I get a prize!  Here is my next prize:




MAKEUP!!! I am a little scared of pink...so this is a great adventure for me...
I already have it in my possession but I wont wear it until I reach that 20 lb mark...hopefully next weekend LOL!  So I can wear it then....EXCITED!!! I just cant hide it..




Till Next Time,
Pushing Pushing Pushing :)


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